I never want to become that person who wears sundresses and plans for their future. I don’t want to wear my hair in a bun or go to dinner with my boyfriend’s family. I don’t wanna smile in pictures and go to PTA meetings. I don’t wanna wear a “I voted!” sticker or drive a Volvo. I don’t want my friends to schedule lunch with me, and I never want to have the misfortunate of planning a play date.
I just want curly hair and cheap food and good weed for the rest of my life.
I want to puke all over my facebook newsfeed right now.
You don’t have to get a job that makes others feel comfortable about what they perceive as your success. You don’t have to explain what you plan to do with your life. You don’t have to justify your education by demonstrating its financial rewards. You don’t have to maintain an impeccable credit score. Anyone who expects you to do any of those things has no sense of history or economics or science or the arts. You have to pay your own electric bill. You have to be kind. You have to give it all you got. You have to find people who love you truly and love them back with the same truth. But that’s all.
Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.
Do not tell everyone your story. You will only end up feeling more rejected. People cannot give you what you long for in your heart. The more you expect from people’s response to your experience of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule.
Henri J. M. Nouwen
Can you imagine how it would feel if your heart were open, if everywhere you went you trusted, and knew that the Universe was friendly? How would your life flow if you believed that your inner guidance was gentle and kind and that people were sending you love wherever you went, and that you were broadcasting a beam of love to everyone?